Falling quite behind...I know

Hey everyone! :)

Ok so in my last post I mentioned that I would update my blog and other updates would be happening. Of course that didn't go quite as planned, because I fell ill. But now that I'm feeling better again I shall resume with the updates I mentioned on my previous post including updating my writing blog too.

Take care Tarana A beaming star shining with positivity for the world to embrace xoxox

Ramadan Diary Day 4 (Wednesday 2nd July 2014)

Hey Everyone! :)

Sorry for updated you all on my Ramadan Diary yesterday so I thought I might as well tell you about it now.

So I started the day off waking up a little bit more earlier than usual. I decided not to read the Qur'an because I wanted to give it a rest. I know it's not good to not be reading daily but I just wanted to not read it for a few days, just so I could recover a little bit from the pain non stop.

Anyways the food was good for Iftar and well I had a good time it was a peaceful day except I felt a little out of place because I wasn't fasting and that made me feel sad because I couldn't join in with rest of the family with their feeling of not feeling the same.

But again I made myself remember that I am also going through a test that my family are not going through and I will In Sha Allah be rewarded either in this life or the hereafter :)

Anyways other than that I think I shall just keep a positive mind like always and keep at it with what ever I can do. Take care all Tarana A beaming star shining with positivity for the world embrace xoxox

Ramadan Diary Day 3 (Tuesday 2nd July 2014)

Hey everyone!

Firstly I want to apologise for the late diary entry, and secondly I want to say I can't believe it's already been the third day! :O 

Is it just me or is it going by so fast? I think the important thing to remember is to always stay I the state of worship and thinking about Allah that's a good way for the time to go by :)

My day unfortunately started late again because I woke up in the afternoon which is terrible so I need to start working on my sleep again starting tomorrow (technically today) so I hope that will work out again :) other than that Iftar with the family was great nothing special happened :)

Well that's all I have to say take care and think positive Tarana A beaming star shining with positivity for the world to embrace xoxox

Ramadan Diary Day 2 (Monday 30th June 2014)

Salam everyone!! :D

Ok so Alhamdulilah it's already day two and everything is going the same :)

My family are all fasting and as usual I cannot but just like yesterday I read one Para of the Qur'an and it felt good. Every Ramadan my family and I split the paras amongst ourselves and we all contribute to the reading - roughly, we a have four to do so it should be fine - of course if we finish reading our given amount we can also help out by helping the other member of the family to complete the whole Qur'an. After its completed my father will tell our local mosque and they will make dua for me and my family.

It's such a wonderful tradition that we have and I like the fact that everyone is more harmonious during this month and I always pray for our family and everyone to be more better people. Of course I pray for the same hint for me and also for my health. ^__^

Anyway I have so far completed two out of four paras on my part and honestly saying it was a lot of difficulty and struggle. But I think that comes with a lot of people when they are struggling and achieving anything. At the end the reward is always greater.

Well I think that's about all for now until tomorrow inshaAllah :) take care Tarana A beaming star shining with positivity for the world to embrace xoxox

Ramadan Diary Day 1 (Sunday 29th June 2014)

Asalamualaikum Warahmatulahi Wabarakatu :)

So today was the first Ramdan of this year :) Just want to say Ramadan Mubarak!! I hope you all had a wonderful fasting day. Of course it's a long day so hardships always come with rewards. Think of it like this: for every good deed you do in the month of Ramdan you are reward 70 times more!!! SubhanAllah! Look at how Great our lord is.

Every struggle and every good deed comes a reward but in the month of Ramadan it's for 70 times more than usual. Use this opportunity to bank in as much rewards as possible.

Personally because of my health condition I am allowed to fast, so instead I would take this as an opportunity to commit as many good deeds as possible. Looking at this in an optimistic perspective Allah is testing me with my health and how I deal with it.

Everyone is tested by Allah in many ways some in a more open way than others this is a way for Allah to provide you a ticket to gaining more rewards and getting closer to heaven.

I hope this journey is filled with hope and happiness and always keep me in your dua's and make sure to pray and ask for forgiveness whether you think you didn't commit a sin or you did there is a high possible chance that you did commit a sin without realising and that is why Allah says that you will need Him rather than Him needing you.

I hope you all a great first day and may te rest of your days to the same way. Ameen. Tarana A beaming star shining with positivity for the world to embrace xoxox

Quick announcement and updates :D

Hey Everyone! :D

Ok I know I have been MIA for some time but like I said I was busy and was really preoccupied with a family matter (good thing nothing bad). I would like to get into more detials but I think it would take too long to go into details so I will keep it short and maybe when I have more time write about it in more detail.


The main thing that I have been busy with for the past two months or so is my big sister getting married!! Yes she is a married woman now, I am proud to say that after many years of earnest searching, my parents found someone that truly compliments to my sister's characteristics and vise versa. I feel so happy for my sister because now a part of her dream/deen has been fulfilled. I would like to go into more details about this but I think I would save it for another post another day.

Updates:

So there are some new changes and other announcements I would need to make :)

~ Since the marriage my time has been a little busy and is now slowly becoming more flexible. Bearing in mind my health I would not be over preassuring myself too much. However, I will be making some changes to my blog as I know that there are some over due changes that I said I would make and I have not had the time to make those changes fully. But do not worry I would be working on these changes to this blog in the next few weeks.

The upcoming changes include as follows:

~ New pages added to this blog including: Learning Centre (learning with me in general), Learning about Islam, about me page etc. I do not want to give it all away so I would keep most of it for the actual updates.

~ Expressive Writing blog - This mostly includes me starting up my writing again making sure to update 3 chapters of my Two of a Kind story and my weekly updates with the other two collab posts. This should also be happening in the next few weeks.

~ Also near the end of the month Ramadan is appoaching! So I would be starting my daily Ramadan Diaries again! :D I'm looking forward to sharing my experience on Ramadan in the next month with you all I noticed that the Ramdan Diary is very popular so I will keep you posted on that.

Ok well that's it for now I will be starting on my changes to this blog and hopefully by the end of this month would have some things updated and posted.

Take care all and think positive, Tarana A beaming star shinging with positivity for the world to embrace xoxox

Time is so precious!

Hey everyone! :D

Ok I know it's been a while and don't think I have forgotten because I haven't its just that I have been busy with things at home and my health as well so I couldn't really do much! >.<

I wanted to let you a know that I'm still busy but I would still like to update you all with my life (for some reason you guys find me interesting and I really appreciate it ~ I'm not popular or famous but just an ordinary Asian girl living a life ;) but of course every individual have their own stories and chapters so they are also a part of life and would have a different tale to tell - this blog is about my life and activities and events in my life and I would gladly share my life chapters with you all :D). There has been many things that I have been doing and honestly saying I think I would only mention this HUGE change probably next Sunday (18th May 2014) because I think by then it would be official :) However I would leave a picture at the end of this post as a clue as to what I'm up to. ;) 

Moving on, let me update you all on my health. Honestly saying its not improving. It's hard to move around much and I'm limited to A LOT of things that I want to do. However on 30th April 2014 I went to my hospital appointment and finally was consulted by another doctor who wasn't my usual one and told them my condition. This doctor is a lot better than my other doctor because this doctor actually showed a lot more concern and care.

It wasn't that the other doctor didn't it was just that she wasn't as instinctive and intuitive as this doctor. I spoke to her about my toes. Now the thing is that I think my bones have gotten quite weak that they have affected my toes by curling them and thus causing more pain (hence why I have been as active as I'd have hoped) and of course generally my condition has gotten worse. The doctor then said that she would talk to the professor. (Side note: this who don't know the professor is actually a very high position there are doctors and senior doctors the professor is like the senior doctor - of this ward). 

After a while she came back, with the professor. So now I'm talking with the professor and he said to me my case is really rare but not unknown and that he has come across this condition before and that it's not incurable but would take two years or so. He then said that he would provide me some medication to help ease the pain and then after four months or so to have another check up.

Now the medication is to be taken at night because it would make me sleepy (btw I am writing this at night and I'm feeling sleepy because I took the medication) and that I would have a peaceful sleep. The bad news is that it's not helping with the pain as much but the good news is that I'm sleeping more peacefully. I think that because I only just started taking the medication it will help my body slowly recover back to normal (In Sha Allah) because I really want to restore my health again.

Ok so other than my health, I think that I'm only trying to rest and help where I can even if its just a little bit and well I had to put on hold my writing because I don't think it would help my health or my time at the moment. However I would like to write poems so I'm might look into that a little more but nothing too religiously at the moment.

Ok now for the clue:

Any ideas? It's related to fruit carving ;) oh and this was my first time doing this so yeah ;) I did this a few days ago too :)

Ok I think I'm about done for now :) I shall leave on a positive note: Time is precious so don't waste it on regret or sorrow but find ways to build your life in a rich and healthy and positive outlook :) Take care and think positive ;) Tarana A beaming star shining with positivity for the world to embrace xoxox

Feeling a lot better now :)

Hey everyone! :D

Ok so my last blog wasn't some that was so positive and I didn't want it to be so long before my next blog post so I wanted to post something today and here it is! :D

I hope that everyone is having a great and awesome day, next day or yesterday? (if that's even possible) basically wherever you are in the world. ^^ I am still very busy and tied down with things or my health, but I'm feeling a lot lighter and by lighter I don't mean my health I mean my busy schedule. I wasn't able to post both my stories today which I'm a little upset about but I was able to update one of them today which made me a lot happier though.

Other than that overall I'm ok and I should be able to post my story would be updated tomorrow! Overall I hope everyone is doing well and staying positive and making sure that you're always thinking happy thoughts. In every hardship comes a positive outcome one way or another so don't worry so much! I hope I am of any sort of inspiration to you all and please don't think negative thoughts all the time.

Take care and think positive Tarana A beaming star shining with positivity for the world to embrace xoxox

For the first time in my life I have felt the lowest of myself today

Hey Everyone!! :D

Given by the title I'm sure you all know what it means. It's normal to feel like this but to me it's not the same. I know I always say good things and hardly anything negative but I just wanted to show you all that I'm still a human and I do have moments that I'm not proud of. Also if I share it to you all then you will learn something too - I hope. So for it to be less depressing I will try my hardest to make sure to end on a positive note.

Yesterday, I made a huge mistake that was Islamically not right. This mistake that I've done I did it while knowing it was wrong. Which makes it a bigger sin. After I did this I straight away sorted it out but the feeling I was left with was the most I felt disgusted in myself. The mistake, I would say, involved a little bit of free mixing (please look it up in the Islamic concept to understand what I mean) now I know it's wrong and Haram and this is why I feel incredibly guilty. I felt worst of myself for it.

Now the reason why it was so extremely horrible for me was because I'm the type of person that can't cry when I need about myself. So if you wanna see me cry all you gotta do is put me in front of a tragedy movie or anything sad and I'll most probably would end up crying! It's like I bottle everything in and this was one of the things (inc. my health as another) that I was not sharing to anyone for a long time.

Until finally I told my big sis, now I know when I do I would let it all out - by crying - and I did. It was the most uncomfortable thing that I have ever felt because I don't like to express my troubles and stress to others so when I do I don't like it at all and I feel like I'm giving them a huge burden by doing so even though I know it's not for them. For me personally it feels like that.

After that my sister was really comforting and was supporting and to be honest it felt great I feel like a sense of release overcame me and for just a little moment my health was not bothering me and I truly felt happy.

Another thing that really touched my heart was the fact that someone I know said this to me yesterday: I made Dua for you, your family and for your health. THAT was the most sweetest thing anyone could ever tell me because it was genuine and I was moved to tears when I was telling my big sis about it (I was just crying it all out to my sis after such a long time about everything I'm going through).

So that's what happened yesterday but NOW I'm back to being the me you all know and love :P I hope you learnt something from this I know for me it's to not do stupid things while KNOWIG I'm doing them and also to try and work on not bottling everything up but that's something I know I'll do again and for that I know it won't last long inside me and it will come out eventually so that's as good as its gonna get ;)

I'm really fortunate to be tested by Allah by my health and not by something else I'm aware many other people suffer a lot more than me and that is how I sooth myself but at the same time feel concerned for others. Which is why I care a lot about others more than myself ^_^

So if you're ever feeling so low please don't feel like you're alone everything happens for a reason and coming from someone who is always optimistic like myself even I have moments like that. People just deal with it differently, if you're one of those people who find comfort by speaking to others about hen to for it! If your someone who expresses it through art, writing or anything creative then go for it!! If you're like me and don't like expressing your negative side then find a way show it in another form my advice to those who are like me would be to express it to someone you're close to and you will feel the most happiest. Believe me! And if you're thinking I had no one around me and you can't do so then....Hi :) you can always tell me I'm told that I'm a good listener and advice giver so I'll always be here to listen!

I hope this wasn't too negative if so I apologise! One good thing I can say is that I am feeling SUPER optimistic and happy right now after playing chase with Aston hehe. I hope to rub off some of that optimism with you all!! Take care and think positive and stay strong Tarana A beaming star shining with positivity for the world to embrace xoxox

Feeling of mixed emotions in one

Hey Everyone!! :D

Ok so I know it's been a long time since I lasted posted but it's because I've been really busy!! Honest :O

Today was a very special occasion (6th April 2014) I won't say what it is just yet because I don't want to ruin it or anything. But there was a lot going on today and I've been feeling mixed things from it. Sad, happy amazed and proud are some of the many emotions I'm feeling right now. Now I know I'm not really saying anything but believe me after a month or so you'll know exactly why that is - I know I know that's such a long time away but believe me it's worth it ;)

Other than that I'm really sorry for not posting much about my daily life. Busy schedule recently so I'll try to post weekly just you all could know what happened over the week! :)

This week was very busy and tiring at the same time but amazing and happy as well.

Health wise nothing much had changed except for my appointment that is coming this month so I'm looking forward to that. ;) I hope my health would improve a ton and I hope to get well soon as I've noticed how popular I am!! :O (jk jk, although there's a lot of responsibility though that I can't do which I want to do).

Lastly, I've been working on my writing recently so if you go over to my writing blog you will see them! So please do check them out and let me know what you think of them!! Doing two collab work which I'm enjoying a lot and of course there's my story too. Also a little side not for this one PLEASE MAKE SURE TO READ THE 'quick update' POST!! As it has important updates on my writing.

Ok well I think that's all about what I can say :) I'm really sorry for not saying too much but I hope that you'll appreciate it and enjoy it and sooth yourself with some reading over at my Expressive Writing blog.

Take care everything and think positive Tarana A beaming shining with positivity for the world to embrace xoxox