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Hey Everyone! :D

I have finally uploaded my first clay video!! I'm so excited to show it to you all! I really hope you enjoy it!!

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Take care Tarana A beaming star shining with positivity for the world to embrace xoxox

Drifting into endless motivation and searching for some redemption

Hey everyone! :D

Ok so I know it's been awhile but I must say that it was only because I haven't been feeling so great! However I thought that I would write something today because I would feel bad if I didn't. So I thought I'd talk about something that I really love and motivates me to move forward! :D

It's the thought that this illness that I have is actually a blessing in disguise! I think that even though I'm in a lot of pain it means that Allah loves me a lot! :D He only thinks the best of people and never gives any trouble or illness that a person can't handle. By thinking like this it makes me feel that I am closer to my redemption then ever before. I feel motivated by the fact that I will be able to do some creative things (although I haven't done anything yet) but I know I will be able design great clothes and create an whole new world when it comes to story writing so yeah I think I will definitely be able to work from something! At the moment it would have to be my story, I have made a start on my next chapter (handwritten) and I will work on it and of course I will work on my clothes designs because I feel the creative juice flow bursting inside of me! :D I will definitely work with that and also I hope that I could start - after my hospital appointment in November - my charms and jewellery making stuff to share with people! So do look forward to that! :D

So I thought I'd pass on some positive thoughts around the world because I'm sure somewhere someone will feel that they are in a very bad situation and feel like they can't go on any longer. My advice to you would be not to worry so much and be yourself because it does become better than you think I know because I had glimpses of the good fortune! Even now I feel fortunate that my suffering is not as bad as some because there is always someone out there who suffer something even more worse than you. So just be patient and do positive things and good will come your way when you lease expect it! :D Don't feel like you are alone because there is always someone out there who is willing to help and if you feel like there is no one then think of Allah and you will be in a good place. Allah has always said: Think of Me when you are suffering and you will be rewarded because I never leave you. (This is not the exact words but it's something like this) Also if you feel like you need someone to talk to I will always be here for anyone! Because one of the things that I enjoy doing is helping others the most! :D 

Anyways take care and think positive! :D as always with love! xoxox

Flowers blooming and some AWESOME news!!!!! :D

Hello Everyone!! :D

Today I am in an Awesome Awesome AWESOME mood!! :D Firstly I'd like to share some of the flowers that grew in my garden!! :D You might be thinking why am I so excited about flowers...well I'll tell you :P I LOVE flowers and roses!! :D they are like the best thing in the world and will put a smile on anyone's face!! :D They are the best thing! I'm telling you if you're down just look at some flowers or smell them they will give you a sense of momentary bliss at the bare minimum :P

So anyways I picked these flowers from my flower pot before they started to wither and thought to myself that I would make a bouquet of flower joined together and leave it as a decoration! :D So here they are! :D

Doesn't it look marvellous!! :D It's so cute and the tiny tea cup makes it even prettier! :D

Ok so I today was what made me feel so awesomely happy! :D I was sleeping in the morning when my phone started ringing and I picked up the phone - FYI I just woke up and I sound horrible in the morning (almost sound like a boy!) - so when I answered the phone I received a call from the Internship programme. A few weeks ago they called me telling me about some possible job opportunities and I said for them to put me down for it! So today they finally got back to me well the emplyers got back to them and they got back to me saying that.....I have a interview for one of the job!!!!! :D I am so happy!!! :D This is like a possible job I will be a co-ordinator and the best thing is that it's located right at my uni!!!! :D It's in my uni!!! :D so it's absolutely perfect!! :D I think it's for 3 days as well so I really can't wait to go for it!!!! :D I am absolutely ecstatic about it (i'm sure you can tell) It's like the perfect job for me at the moment - oh don't worry I still haven't given up my hope to becoming a teacher oh no no no :P - I think this would help me out in terms of my health as well!!

So yeah please please please! Keep my in your dua's and prayers!! :D I really wish to get this job so I hope I do. I know I know I'm getting WAAY too hopeful about it and it's not something that should be feeling but I just can't help it!! :D Also I asked my uni to give me a mock interview because I want to be fully prepared for this!! :D So I'm looking forward to it!! :D

Also because of my health I need as much vitamin D so I have been going out in the sun  whenever it came out and today and yesterday was no exception. Of course being a Muslim we always cover up so it's really hard to get the sunlight so what I do is at the front of my house I just cover my hair and expose my arms and feet and face to the sun - this is for medical purpose so insha Allah it will be fine! :D Afterwards, I spoke to my dad saying I'm going to the market and I was really happy that I went because it's been a week since I last went out of the house! So not good! Because I've been spending my time at home for too long! So I went to the market, but I didn't get anything for me because it was a Monday and there really wasn't anything good that was out so yeah, but because of the mood I've been feeling I have been so pumped and feel like I can do about anything! :D Including getting back into my jewellery making! Which I will start to do soon because I'll be going to another market called Roman Road Market tomorrow to see what I could get!! :D Jewellery wise I mean and of course any other things. But while I was at Crisp Street market (the one I went to today) I took a couple of pictures just to show you all!! :D

 

Market always have a lot of good stuff and it's always exciting to find out what they might have next! :D So I love going to markets!! :D

Anyways that's all for today again always and forever stay safe and think positive because there's no better way to  live a life then like this :P xoxox

Sorry for not blogging! :O Depressed but then Impressed! :D Happy go Lucky as always :) (Post about yesterday and today)

Hey Everyone!! :D

How are you all? :) Ok I need to apologise for yesterday! Honestly saying I forgot to :O I was playing on that online game :) and I totally forogt and by the time I remembered it was too late and I was going to sleep! So I'll blog for today! :)

Firstly, I was a little depressed yesterday because I wasn't getting a job but in a way I was happy because my dad was really supportive of my jewellery making home business :) It's something I have been thinking about so I will make it happen! :D I was also thinking about my life skills such as driving...yep I still haven't learnt driving....so I really want to get that out of the way. Knowing me I feel a little scared because I always think of myself as a clumsy driver that would make a stupid mistake and end up in a car accident...I know the paranoia thought lol. But it's a natural thought to have so I was thinking about it but of course I am not totally discouraged and my big sis was being very supportive which was nice :)

Anyways, I was talking to my sis about how it's hard to find a job...and I was thinking about how the one thing that is a more definite thing that can't go wrong is going wrong just made me feel like I'm cursed when it comes to finding a job! But then today I check my e-mail and I get an e-mail from my uni about the CV workshop that I was thinking would never happen...and it turns out they finally made the session on Tuesday next week! :D Of course I am happy but and a little hopeful but I won't bring my hopes up and I will definitely not give up because there is always hope! :D Also when I was loading the e-mail I was thinking that the session would be on my birthday and guess what? It is! :P That's right everyone! :) My birthday is next week Tuesday 20th August :D I'm actually kind  of happy about it it's like a new age and a new start! :) Anyways other than that my sister did find a few vacancies which I will apply to as soon as I get MircroSoft Office :)

Also I am kind of excited about the jewellery making so I can't wait to start up on that!! :D Other than that today nothing much really happened although I haven't forgotten about my chapter update! so don't worry about that I will definitely put that up soon and most probably some time this week :) Honestly I know I keep delaying it but I'm hoping I will be able to upload it this week! :D

Laptop is still not sorted out but I will be making a start on it today so don't worry about that :)

Well that's all for today take care and think positive xoxox

Mega update finally!! Monthly special and more!! :D

Hey everyone!! :D

WARNING: Going to be a very VERY long post! Also this is the first post where I am posting a picture of myself :D Monthly special or what lol :P

Ok I know it's been a long time since I've posted but it's only because there's a lot of things that's been happening for the past few weeks (hence the title). I always want to write about it but I ended up procrastinating so I thought I need to write it either now or never. I also did say that I would try to write everyday so I will definitely try again...so...I wanted to apologise big time - I'm really really sorry!!! However I have A LOT to share and make up for it!! :) So first lets make a list of things to discuss in this blog:

1) My Creative crafts Special & Monthly Special
2) Summer Fete
3) Employment Stuff
4) Updates

~~~ Creative Craft Special ~~~
 Ok as you all know I talked about something special that would happen that's related to crafts well here it is! Basically let me start off from Saturday 22nd June. That week I was speaking to someone in my local community about running a workshop, as I mentioned in one of my previous posts that I registered to this time bank system in my local community (check out my post entitled: Morning breakfast Yummy! :) ); well from that I've finally been able to give something back which is.....JEWELLERY MAKING!!! Oh yeah!!! Well honestly there was going to be more - like polymer clay works - but my pitch (lets call it) was half successful...so they decided to start it off with a jewellery making workshop and if it is very successful then I can start working with polymer clay in the future - when they have more funds of course.

So anyway lets get back to Saturday 22nd June, I started watching some Youtube videos on basic jewellery making and found one that's really simple and great!!! :D I watched it once and I know how to make it :) it was the perfect way to start off with something simple. Because on Friday 21st June I spoke to the person in my community centre and she told me that I have a budget of £50 which is a really GREAT start for the workshop. So anyways I spoke to a girl that is also doing some time sharing stuff and told her if she wouldn't mind coming to Oxford street with me and have a look at a craft shop that my friend told me about, fortunately she said yes and we arranged to meet on Monday at 10:30am so we don't get caught in any rush hour.

However before that day let me just squeeze in my monthly special (well the creative craft is the extra part in here). On Satuday 22nd June I finally met up with my Undergraduate friends and we went to Nando's to eat. Of course it was just us girls - with one left over!! I really missed my other friend who wasn't there :( Well anyways I meet with my friends and it just made me think that after nearly 1 year we all have changed. For instance now my friend has a 6 month baby boy soo cute he loves my toy (yay) I was happy when I saw him playing with it. He was also really well behaved when I was feeding him, he was soo cute but then he realises that his mum is not around and then starts to cry. My other friend just finished her degree and is sorted and lastly my other friend got married and I wasn't able to go to her wedding because we lost contact somehow :( but the good thing is that we are in contact again :D

The meal was very nice and we all enjoyed it so much!! It felt great going and meeting my friends after such a long time. But it also made me think about my position. I felt like I was in a standstill not going anywhere after dropping the PGCE Primary. Honestly saying I felt I wasn't going anywhere with my life but I didn't feel upset by their achievements or success but just feel a little regretful for not continuing with my programme. However all things happen for a reason right?

Here's some pictures of the event I'd like to share with you guys:

 This is a picture of Kirsty and Damien together - So sweet!! Really made me want a baby Oh and that's the toy that I got for him! See? I told you he loves it!! :D






















 This is picture of Me, Kirsty, Roseanne and of course Baby Damien all in one at Nando's!! :D

























That's a picture of me and Roseanne, who I haven't seen in a long time! It was really nice seeing her again!! :D











Oh this was a gift from my friend Kirsty, It's an American sweet that's available now in UK! It's really nice!! Makes you really thirsty but sooo goooood!!! :D Thanks Kirsty!! :)



















 ~~~Back to creative craft special~~~
Well anyways that was my Saturday which then lead to me looking at jewellery videos on YouTube later that evening hence where I found myself the perfect video.

Then Monday 24th June 2013 came and I met up with the girl I said I would meet up with for the little journey to Oxford Street. We met at Mile End station and here is where the problem started. My friend told me that the craft shop HobbyCraft does not exist in Oxford Street to which I then told her that my other friend told me on Facebook she said that there isn't any and I had to make the decision of either not going to Oxford Street or to forget about it - I decided to head to Oxford Street regardless and hopefully find any other crafty type shops for jewellery making.

It's a good thing I said yes because we in fact found really good stores for the jewellery making and found that they would give a lot of stuff I found this really great beading shop calling beads creative craft (or something like that) and it was great!! It was not only a wholesaler but a retailer so we managed to get some good stuff and ended up getting some great stuff from it.I bought some beads, chains, jump rings, head pins and so on. I was happy I felt that I bought a lot of stuff and that this was actually happening, that thought made me feel a little scared - I guess you can say my self esteem was being shaken.

Anyways all this good stuff came afterwards. By that I mean that when we did arrive we checked online to find out if there was HobbyCraft and found out that there actually wasn't a HobbyCraft there and I misunderstood because I checked on my Facebook and my friend actually meant Oxford!! :O Really really far!! Thus began our journey through the different other stores where the results were great.

After we got back I went to my local community centre (I just realised that I never mentioned what the name of it is - It's called Bromley By Bow Centre) and spoke to Rose - who is in charge of the Time Bank as is another girl named Hajirah - I told her if it was ok for me to take the stuff home so I could make a bracelet for demonstration and said yes.

So when I went home with the stuff I was really happy but then in the next couple of days I was losing confidence to start on the bracelet, if your thinking why....I was thinking the same thing and then I thought there's no point in delaying it because I need to present them something on Thursday so then on Wednesday 26th June in the night I made myself a bracelet and the result is below:


This is the bracelet that I made! :) What do you guys think? This bracelet also became my big sisters birthday present because it was her birthday on Monday I forgot to get her something. She liked it which was nice :) There's seven beads on this representing each of us siblings :)













































The next day the jewellery making workshop taster day was a success!! There was a great turn out and although there wasn't enough pliers going around but it still worked out and then I had a number of people sign up for the next session on Thursday. Oh I forgot to mention the session was held on the coffee session that the time bank provide!! :) Anyways at the end of it all it worked out perfectly!! A couple of days later I got a call from them telling me that I can't do the workshop during the coffee session because obviously it's their coffee session so I thought ok, I can do another day or time and so we arranged it at 3-4:30pm every Thursday!! How cool is that!! I had my second session on Thursday 4th of July and it was a great success I was so happy of the end result where EVERYONE made themselves a bracelet!! and to top it off I did too!!























































After doing the first bracelet the second one became even easier! Now all I have to do is order for the next session and I'm officially a businesswomen!! :) Well sort of lol

~~~Summer Fete~~~
Ok this is something that's been happening every year at the back of my house!! They always have a fete, kind of like a garage sale but in a more festive and community base way! It was great fun!! I went with my mum to check out the things and we found some very great stuff. I wore my creamish brown coloured scarf that my big bro bought when he went for Saudi Arabia!! Here's a picture of it:

 Nice right? I really like it hence the smile :P Just realised this is the first post where I am posting a picture of myself! :D





















The event was always very festive and it happens every summer!!! Anyways here's some more pictures have look at them hopefully you can tell the festivities that I mean:

From the fruit of all this browsing the results where very great as well we bought many things for me and my sisters:


These were for my sister, starting with the youngest: My mum truly shows her love for her when we go shopping - we bought her the colourful hairbands, the 50p floral bracelet and the Sundae desert necklace (which we bought from my neighbor). For my younger sister we bought her the chain heart necklace with the first letter of her name on it - and fortunately she loved it! (Honestly, it's very hard to shop for an ex tomboy lol) and lastly for my big sister I bought her the bracelet on the far left which she loved.













As for myself I bought:

Some lovely Chains and a Selwar Kameez (For those who don't know a Selwar Kameez is a Traditional Asian clothing worn at home or on special occasions depending on the type of Selwar Kameez it is)

For my mum she just loved the food and didn't really liked anything for herself, as for my brother there wasn't anything for them so we couldn't get it unfortunately.

~~~Employment Stuff~~~
Ok during the summer fete I spoke to a lady who said that her daughter ran her own beauty salon I asked if she was hiring and told her I make jewellery she told me that she would definitely call me!! So I'm looking forward to that...but when the day came she didn't call I tried calling back but it was unavailable and I tried the post code it didn't work and it still didn't work so I gave up on that I thought it was dodgy...so in ther end I started applying to many other jobs still waiting to hear from them!! Hopefully I'l get some good news!! :D

~~~Updates~~~
Ok the final thing to mention is that I had an Idea that since it is a Ramadan that I would make like a Ramadan Diary letting everyone know what it's like for the Muslims on this blessed month!! :D So as soon as I post this I would make a start because it's nearly becoming the 5th Ramadan already and I haven't even made a start on it!!

Wow finally made it through and got to the point where I can start blogging regularly...I swear I won't pile it up like this ever again.

Anyways hope you all enjoyed this long post and thanks to those who read it all the way, until next time take care and stay positive!! xxx

Bracelets complete!!

Ok so I've just finished making my multiple bracelet in 1 check it out and tell me what you think??

Feeling creative

Ok I just thought of something more creative with my jewellery making I'm going to attempt to make a bracelet project which is basically going involve me making multiple bracelets in one!! Look forward to the finish work :) xx

Bracelets are awesome!!

Heey everyone!! :D

I just made my bracelet!! I just finished making the pearly bracelets the other two I made another day the light blue and white one was my first ever one and then I made the dark blue and dark green one as my second I think I'm getting the hang of it.

The pearly one didn't even take that long probably in about 5 mins.