Time is so precious!

Hey everyone! :D

Ok I know it's been a while and don't think I have forgotten because I haven't its just that I have been busy with things at home and my health as well so I couldn't really do much! >.<

I wanted to let you a know that I'm still busy but I would still like to update you all with my life (for some reason you guys find me interesting and I really appreciate it ~ I'm not popular or famous but just an ordinary Asian girl living a life ;) but of course every individual have their own stories and chapters so they are also a part of life and would have a different tale to tell - this blog is about my life and activities and events in my life and I would gladly share my life chapters with you all :D). There has been many things that I have been doing and honestly saying I think I would only mention this HUGE change probably next Sunday (18th May 2014) because I think by then it would be official :) However I would leave a picture at the end of this post as a clue as to what I'm up to. ;) 

Moving on, let me update you all on my health. Honestly saying its not improving. It's hard to move around much and I'm limited to A LOT of things that I want to do. However on 30th April 2014 I went to my hospital appointment and finally was consulted by another doctor who wasn't my usual one and told them my condition. This doctor is a lot better than my other doctor because this doctor actually showed a lot more concern and care.

It wasn't that the other doctor didn't it was just that she wasn't as instinctive and intuitive as this doctor. I spoke to her about my toes. Now the thing is that I think my bones have gotten quite weak that they have affected my toes by curling them and thus causing more pain (hence why I have been as active as I'd have hoped) and of course generally my condition has gotten worse. The doctor then said that she would talk to the professor. (Side note: this who don't know the professor is actually a very high position there are doctors and senior doctors the professor is like the senior doctor - of this ward). 

After a while she came back, with the professor. So now I'm talking with the professor and he said to me my case is really rare but not unknown and that he has come across this condition before and that it's not incurable but would take two years or so. He then said that he would provide me some medication to help ease the pain and then after four months or so to have another check up.

Now the medication is to be taken at night because it would make me sleepy (btw I am writing this at night and I'm feeling sleepy because I took the medication) and that I would have a peaceful sleep. The bad news is that it's not helping with the pain as much but the good news is that I'm sleeping more peacefully. I think that because I only just started taking the medication it will help my body slowly recover back to normal (In Sha Allah) because I really want to restore my health again.

Ok so other than my health, I think that I'm only trying to rest and help where I can even if its just a little bit and well I had to put on hold my writing because I don't think it would help my health or my time at the moment. However I would like to write poems so I'm might look into that a little more but nothing too religiously at the moment.

Ok now for the clue:

Any ideas? It's related to fruit carving ;) oh and this was my first time doing this so yeah ;) I did this a few days ago too :)

Ok I think I'm about done for now :) I shall leave on a positive note: Time is precious so don't waste it on regret or sorrow but find ways to build your life in a rich and healthy and positive outlook :) Take care and think positive ;) Tarana A beaming star shining with positivity for the world to embrace xoxox

Feeling a lot better now :)

Hey everyone! :D

Ok so my last blog wasn't some that was so positive and I didn't want it to be so long before my next blog post so I wanted to post something today and here it is! :D

I hope that everyone is having a great and awesome day, next day or yesterday? (if that's even possible) basically wherever you are in the world. ^^ I am still very busy and tied down with things or my health, but I'm feeling a lot lighter and by lighter I don't mean my health I mean my busy schedule. I wasn't able to post both my stories today which I'm a little upset about but I was able to update one of them today which made me a lot happier though.

Other than that overall I'm ok and I should be able to post my story would be updated tomorrow! Overall I hope everyone is doing well and staying positive and making sure that you're always thinking happy thoughts. In every hardship comes a positive outcome one way or another so don't worry so much! I hope I am of any sort of inspiration to you all and please don't think negative thoughts all the time.

Take care and think positive Tarana A beaming star shining with positivity for the world to embrace xoxox

For the first time in my life I have felt the lowest of myself today

Hey Everyone!! :D

Given by the title I'm sure you all know what it means. It's normal to feel like this but to me it's not the same. I know I always say good things and hardly anything negative but I just wanted to show you all that I'm still a human and I do have moments that I'm not proud of. Also if I share it to you all then you will learn something too - I hope. So for it to be less depressing I will try my hardest to make sure to end on a positive note.

Yesterday, I made a huge mistake that was Islamically not right. This mistake that I've done I did it while knowing it was wrong. Which makes it a bigger sin. After I did this I straight away sorted it out but the feeling I was left with was the most I felt disgusted in myself. The mistake, I would say, involved a little bit of free mixing (please look it up in the Islamic concept to understand what I mean) now I know it's wrong and Haram and this is why I feel incredibly guilty. I felt worst of myself for it.

Now the reason why it was so extremely horrible for me was because I'm the type of person that can't cry when I need about myself. So if you wanna see me cry all you gotta do is put me in front of a tragedy movie or anything sad and I'll most probably would end up crying! It's like I bottle everything in and this was one of the things (inc. my health as another) that I was not sharing to anyone for a long time.

Until finally I told my big sis, now I know when I do I would let it all out - by crying - and I did. It was the most uncomfortable thing that I have ever felt because I don't like to express my troubles and stress to others so when I do I don't like it at all and I feel like I'm giving them a huge burden by doing so even though I know it's not for them. For me personally it feels like that.

After that my sister was really comforting and was supporting and to be honest it felt great I feel like a sense of release overcame me and for just a little moment my health was not bothering me and I truly felt happy.

Another thing that really touched my heart was the fact that someone I know said this to me yesterday: I made Dua for you, your family and for your health. THAT was the most sweetest thing anyone could ever tell me because it was genuine and I was moved to tears when I was telling my big sis about it (I was just crying it all out to my sis after such a long time about everything I'm going through).

So that's what happened yesterday but NOW I'm back to being the me you all know and love :P I hope you learnt something from this I know for me it's to not do stupid things while KNOWIG I'm doing them and also to try and work on not bottling everything up but that's something I know I'll do again and for that I know it won't last long inside me and it will come out eventually so that's as good as its gonna get ;)

I'm really fortunate to be tested by Allah by my health and not by something else I'm aware many other people suffer a lot more than me and that is how I sooth myself but at the same time feel concerned for others. Which is why I care a lot about others more than myself ^_^

So if you're ever feeling so low please don't feel like you're alone everything happens for a reason and coming from someone who is always optimistic like myself even I have moments like that. People just deal with it differently, if you're one of those people who find comfort by speaking to others about hen to for it! If your someone who expresses it through art, writing or anything creative then go for it!! If you're like me and don't like expressing your negative side then find a way show it in another form my advice to those who are like me would be to express it to someone you're close to and you will feel the most happiest. Believe me! And if you're thinking I had no one around me and you can't do so then....Hi :) you can always tell me I'm told that I'm a good listener and advice giver so I'll always be here to listen!

I hope this wasn't too negative if so I apologise! One good thing I can say is that I am feeling SUPER optimistic and happy right now after playing chase with Aston hehe. I hope to rub off some of that optimism with you all!! Take care and think positive and stay strong Tarana A beaming star shining with positivity for the world to embrace xoxox

Feeling of mixed emotions in one

Hey Everyone!! :D

Ok so I know it's been a long time since I lasted posted but it's because I've been really busy!! Honest :O

Today was a very special occasion (6th April 2014) I won't say what it is just yet because I don't want to ruin it or anything. But there was a lot going on today and I've been feeling mixed things from it. Sad, happy amazed and proud are some of the many emotions I'm feeling right now. Now I know I'm not really saying anything but believe me after a month or so you'll know exactly why that is - I know I know that's such a long time away but believe me it's worth it ;)

Other than that I'm really sorry for not posting much about my daily life. Busy schedule recently so I'll try to post weekly just you all could know what happened over the week! :)

This week was very busy and tiring at the same time but amazing and happy as well.

Health wise nothing much had changed except for my appointment that is coming this month so I'm looking forward to that. ;) I hope my health would improve a ton and I hope to get well soon as I've noticed how popular I am!! :O (jk jk, although there's a lot of responsibility though that I can't do which I want to do).

Lastly, I've been working on my writing recently so if you go over to my writing blog you will see them! So please do check them out and let me know what you think of them!! Doing two collab work which I'm enjoying a lot and of course there's my story too. Also a little side not for this one PLEASE MAKE SURE TO READ THE 'quick update' POST!! As it has important updates on my writing.

Ok well I think that's all about what I can say :) I'm really sorry for not saying too much but I hope that you'll appreciate it and enjoy it and sooth yourself with some reading over at my Expressive Writing blog.

Take care everything and think positive Tarana A beaming shining with positivity for the world to embrace xoxox

hey hey

Hellloooo!! :D

Ok so I've been preoccupied these few days (since my last post) with writing and taking my lil sis to her placement for the week :) So it's not like me to neglect you :O Anyways nothing really much to say today except that the last post contained a lot of artsy work and not this post will contain some creative writing work, so here's the links to the most recent writing work I've been doing and of course the collab writing work too :)





http://express-writing.blogspot.co.uk/2014/03/another-collab-work-is-out-d.html

http://express-writing.blogspot.co.uk/2014/03/check-this-out.html

Also please make sure to check out my co-writers blog that they created, daydreamer, I must admit it's actually better than mine for sure!! :O So if you like any of my creative writing work then please check out daydreamers' work it's great!!

daydreamersflashbacks.blogspot.co.uk

Well I guess that's it for now ;) I'll talk to you all soon (more likely tomorrow) until then take care and think positive. Tarana A beaming star shining with positivity for the world to embrace xoxox

Happy 1 year and 2 days anniversary!! :)

Heey everyone!! :D

Ok I know I've said I'll be doing a lot, and I did say I'll be making some changes to this blog (which I haven't given up on yet it will be done soon) so bare with me please. Also, given from the title, it's now my 1 year and 2 days anniversary since I've made this blog!! ^^ I'm really happy, I still remembered how I used to get 1 view or so in my blog and I felt extrememly happy! :)

Even now it's nice to know how as soon as I post something it automatically recieves a few views and I owe it all to you! So thank you so much!! :D It means the world to me to know that I'm able to be a part of your life even in the most smallest way possible, I really appreciate each and every view and person :)




If you head on over to my Expressive writing you will see my recent post :) I've posted the post just before writing this post and it's on a song I wrote :P I NEVER write songs or ever recorded myself doing one (I didn't record this by the way). I just randomly thought of this and I wanted to write it down and to be honest I'm actually happy at how it turned out. There is a reason why I wrote this song but I prefer not to say :P and I know most poeple would assume things from reading the lyrics but I still won't tell you if it's right or wrong :P So please check it out it's called I love you

Click to read the song

Also I've started to do my collab writing work with people so make sure to check that out over at my expressive writing blog. I'm really enjoying it and it's very interesting what others come up with I hope to do more over time :)

Ok well I hope you all are doing well and are always thinking positively. My healthis pretty much the same still but anytime there is sunlight I go out in the sun and enjoy the sunshine :) Although I got a little sunburnt but I'm still good :) I just hope that my health will get better soon though! :)

Take care and stay positive Tarana A beaming star shining with positivity for the world to embrace xoxox

Gosh that was too long of a break!

Hey Everyone! :)

How you all been? I know I know, it's been so long since I've posted, but I've been ill, distracted and just simply wasn't able to do so. However, the good news is that I've done some artwork over the month of Feurary, and also this month so I'm not completely MIA. Unfortunately the changes I was hoping to make to my blog are still undergoing and would be done, I really hope, soon. Lastly, I have an announcement to make but I'll keep it until the end so look out for that :) Or just scroll right down and read the message because I know some of you will :P So lets get to the describing of all the pictures and photos I've taken shall we? :P

Ok this picture I have to admit I didn't like it at first because I thought it wasn't coming out the way I wanted it to. However, now that I look back at it I actually really love it a lot :P I also used my gold and silver markers that I bought and got a little excited with them (you'll see why in the next picture) (picture on: 3/2/14).

As you can tell I was having fun with my markers lol after I did my rose up there  I decided that I wanted to do some doodling of any sort using my markers so this was just me exploring in my mind. I actually had a lot of things I was thinking about but didn't express to much though. (Picture done on 3/2/14).

Ok this was when I really wanted to express positivity and optimism because some people I know were being really down and negative so I wanted to share with them something positive. I also thought that I might as well share it with you all too so here it is. The message reads 'A positive thought, is a colourful thought, think of one a day, to help your life be, full of of colourful ideas.' I really hope this helps you all out if you ever feel sad or depressed. I used collage of different colours gluing it together and using, of course, my metallic markers, to present this. It was a really fun artsy project, I think it would be even fun if anyone had a chance of making their own one themselves. (This picture was done at: Background: 3/2/14 and message 4/2/14).

This was a time when my youngest sister, big sister and mum went to the market and they bought me a few things! It was so sweet of them, just like this tiramisu it was a heavenly delight and so good!

My youngest sister bought me this candle set. It was so sweet of her to buy me one I felt truly loved that day! :D I still haven't used it yet though :P But I shall do at one point ;)





















Ok this was soooo sweet of my friend! :D She really made me smile! This was a postcard from my friend who went on a holiday and I was completely surprised! :O I felt so loved and so happy to get it. When it arrive my mum said to me I received a letter I was asking her is it from the council or something related to health? She said it's a card. I was so confused and when I saw it I was like oh who sent me a postcard? I read the whole thing and it was from my friend!!! I was sooo surprised and happy! I felt sooo loved and it really made my day so much! :D Thanks Roseanne of you're reading this ;) I'm really happy that you had such a wonderful time.

This was my second attempt at the rose :P I love this one too, it actually reminded me of the other rose I did as well. I think they are both really good :) This was again one of the picture that I didn't like at first because it wasn't exactly how I visualised it but I think it came out good. I'm satisfied with the end result still.  (Picture done on 9/2//14)

I really enjoyed making those inspirational and positive messages and I think it's nice to no how to encourage it. I really hope this helps people becaue it's always nice to know if it helps someone. The message 'Don't surround yourself with the negative, surround yourself with positive and BLOOM <3' I hope this helps people in some way I truly hope that it does. I really in this too, I hope that people will take something from this. Also I was doing this while I was getting some sun outside of my house as you know I need it for the vitamin D so I'm getting all the sunlight I can get :P (Picture done on 5/3/14)

This was another drawing that I did, I really like this one a lot because I always wanted to do really well with rocks and pathways, this was my main focus on this. Even though I know there is always room for improvement I still like this one a lot!! :D This was also done outside too :) I really enjoyed doing this one a lot :) (Picture done on 12/3/14)

This was my latest artwork and I'm really happy at how it turned out. I really wanted random flowers and and blooms but having like a tangled loop going over it! :) I really enjoyed doing this too. I hope you all like it I really like this one a lot. (picture: flowers on 12/3/14 & thorns and branches 13/3/14)

Well now it's time for the final thing that I was holding back :) If you're all following me on my expressive writing blog you all would know this. But if not well then let me tell you about it!!! I started a collab writing with a friend of mine, her name is Leah, she's an amazing girl and I'm glad I met her. We started a writing collab together and well I've just finished the first chapter so let me present it to you:

Click here to view

We decided to make it a chapter by chapter writing. Of course discussing the details of it with each other and presenting the chapter and then if we both agree then I upload it to my writing blog. If you enjoy it please let me know! :)

Also follow me on twitter and instagram and my other blogs too!! :D Take care everyone and always think positive! Tarana A beaming star shining with positivity for the world to embrace xoxox

Working on some changes...

Hey everyone! :D

Ok so I know it's been a while since I've posted but it's not that I haven't forgetton it's just that I am working on the changes to the blog and I want to share that with you all so yeah I apologise for any of the delay but it's getting there by the way :P

Anyways I hope that the positive thinking helps you all because it's really a good way to approach things and it should help make decisions in a calm and easy way. Stay safe and think positive take care Tarana A beaming star shining with positivity for the world to embrace xoxox

Very interesting things that can be learnt!

Hey My lovely beaming stars! :P

OK so I've been reading and studying (like I said I would) yesterday and today on different things! Then I thought to myself that I want to make some changes to my blog and share my knowlege with you guys! Which I would do in the next few weeks! So you all can learn new things and hopefully be inspired as well.

I think I might start if off tomorrow or the next day so look out for it! Also I'm sure that you'll all be able to see some major changes to this blog, things added and things taken off. I know I just changed the look but I think it should be improved (in my opinion).

Lastly, good thing is that my health is improving so I'm really happy about that. Always stay optimistic guys, take care Tarana A beaming star shining with positivity for the world to embrace xoxox

Geek mode on!

Hey everyone! :)

I know it's just past midnight (and I'm SUPER tired) but I just had to post this, basically I want to learn a lot of things that I can't go to places and learn so I've decided to home study it for now. I'm feeling really nerdy so tomorrow is basically a study day gonna learn a lot of stuff and share it with you all!! This will be things like health, beauty, skincare, crafts and so much more ;) so yeah I just thought I'd share that with you. Learning can be fun it's just how you go about it ;) take care Tarana A beaming star shining with positivity for the world to embrace xoxox